anxiety

When I can come here and announce that for dinner tonight I went out to dinner, ordered a dish with the word "tofu" in it and the description containing the words "vegetables" and the phrase "stir fry", and I report back that I actually liked it, I think we can say I've made a breakthrough.

For once, I actually went grocery shopping. As in... made a menu plan, made a list, went to the store and bought things.

In our house, going to the grocery store is one of those things that should happen on a weekly basis, but often doesn't. More often than not, what ends up happening is we end up going to Target to pick up the very basics of eat at home type food... milk, spaghetti, cereal, soda, Kraft dinner (I'm ashamed to admit how much we actually do eat Kraft dinner)... OR we end up just saying screw it and going out to eat.

In my life, there's a particular time when my focused self goes home for the day and my distracted self reemerges. This is often a disorienting, frustrating, and anxiety ridden time of day for me. It usually takes a couple of hours to catch my second wind, where I can sort of focus again... Occasionally I miss the mark though.

It doesn't always manifest itself the same way...