Unproductiveness and Tidying the Living Room

If there's one thing I seriously don't get about myself, it's the fact that I'm so utterly inconsistent.

Why is it that some weeks I'm overly productive? Able churn out tons of work efficiently whilst still being able to keep on top of the blogs I read and boards I post on and keeping a handle on the basic household chores like laundry and dishes.

Then on other weeks I can spend every day sitting in front of the machine staring at it, accomplishing ABSOLUTELY nothing. Not getting work done. Not really reading or posting on blogs and message boards. Not really talking to anybody. Not getting any work around the house done. Not even really sure how on earth I wasted 12 hours sitting in front of the box with absolutely nothing to show for it.

I know the medication has helped... Some. There were far far more weeks where I sat staring at the computer and doing nothing than there were productive ones... but still, it's not perfect.

I guess this seems to happen when I'm not sure exactly what it is I'm supposed to be doing... if I don't have a clear direction... I just seem to cease to do anything because I can't decide what sort of nothingness I'm supposed to be doing.

I forced myself to clean this evening. The apartment turned into a pigsty, but I'm not sure how.. I only really noticed and was bothered when I ran out of drinking glasses and looked over to find every single one of them sitting in and around the sink and wondered why it hadn't occurred to me before to put a load of dishes in the dishwasher. I gathered up the remaining dirty clothes to be washed tomorrow, and I decluttered the living room. Then emptied the Roomba of the last round of dust and have now sent it on a vacuuming mission.

Tomorrow, I'll try to straighten up the kitchen, I think. And do the laundry.

I guess it's time to get back on track again.